Sighh…I’m just tired. Tired of the pretense that all is well, that I am superwoman and can make all things right for all those who depend on or look up to me. Why can I not just be my regular self…accountable to none but my heavenly father? Now that my protector is gone…the burden has become heavier, I feel like I can barely breathe sometimes.

I would like to for once, just once have someone else to lean on, to be certain that I can lay my cares down, my responsibilities down and know that I am safe and supported and I can cry in peace. That I no longer have to create that front, that impenetrable exterior.

I know the whole story that ‘To whom much is given, much is expected‘, but at what point does the expectation become too much? Who determines when that point is reached..?

I hereby acknowledge that my body, soul, mind and spirit are tired…just tired.